I'm still struggling to walk and experiencing pain, which is taking a toll on my mental health. I feel trapped at home without a routine, something I've always relied on to maintain my mental well-being.
My doctors are still not willing to give me the green light to return to work. I admit I was a bit naive in thinking I could go back on light duties until I fully recovered. However, the DOM stated that if I were to return, he expects me to be fully fit in six weeks, in accordance with Royal Mail policy. Currently, I am unable to drive, lift weight, and I have to spend most of my time sitting, which is still uncomfortable.
Soon, my pay will be reduced by half. According to the consultant's prognosis, it will take 8-12 months (from injury date) before I am well enough to return to work, but there is a possibility that I may never fully recover. This thought scares me.
I feel guilty for feeling sad about my situation when I know there are many people going through far worse each day. Nevertheless, I can't help but feel this way. I'm in a bit of a dark place, worried that I may never be able to return to work. Our mortgage is due for renewal next year, and I feel guilty for not being able to contribute enough money to our household expenses.
Initially, I viewed this as a mere accident. However, seeing the boxes still littering the loading area, experiencing pressure from the DOM to return (although not inappropriately), despite being far from ready, as well as being expected to be fit in 6 weeks has changed my perspective. Additionally, this situation has strained my relationship due to my mental health struggles and my girlfriend's frustration with still needing to support me (as a former carer, I understand her frustration). Now, I'm feeling quite angry about the situation. It should never have happened, and Royal Mail's attitude is that it was my fault for not conducting a risk assessment before walking just 10 feet (although I did check my path was clear). The box accidentally slid into my path as I walked, carrying another box to the van. I believe I did everything correctly.
I believe it's inevitable that someone else will get hurt unless the hazardous conditions in the yard, such as litter, mail sacks, old trolleys, and bikes, are addressed.
As a union member who has worked with Royal Mail for about two years, I'm considering speaking to union solicitors about making a claim, (if anyone feels I have one?). I hadn't thought about this until recently, as I dislike the blame and claim culture. However, I genuinely believe that everyone involved could benefit from this course of action, including my colleagues, managers, the company, and myself. It would ensure that such incidents are prevented in the future and spare others from unnecessary harm and suffering.
My reasons for pursuing this are twofold:
Firstly, I want Royal Mail to learn an actual lesson from this experience, ensuring that no one else is needlessly injured and forced to endure this suffering.
Secondly, I have experienced a significant financial impact. I missed out on all my Christmas overtime, which I usually rely on to help pay bills for a few months and cover Christmas expenses. As a result, I've had to pay others to do essential/emergency work on the house that I would normally handle myself. I'm easily several thousand pounds behind where I would be if this accident hadn't happened. Managing our mortgage will soon become challenging.
I understand that people are often quick to pursue 'compo', but that is genuinely not my intention in considering this as a potential claim. While recovering some of the money I've lost due to this accident would be personally beneficial, I couldn't live with myself if someone else fell and ended up paralyzed because I chose not to take action out of embarrassment, shame (and I do feel both), or a desire for an easy life (and I'd rather an easy life). I've reported the dangerous condition of the yard, and I was assured it would be addressed, but nothing has changed. I feel the only way they will learn is if it affects their revenue.
I would appreciate any advice, thoughts, or opinions, particularly from a colleague's perspective. Lately, I feel like I'm not thinking clearly due to depression and anxiety (I am currently addressing this with my doctor).
Thank you for taking the time to read this. It actually felt good to get it off my chest.