Way back in Feb I injured my knee outside of work. I asked for help at the time as it was 2 days before I was due on leave and got told nope there's only you to do the round. So I carried on.
And carried on all summer. And it didn't really improve.
Beginning of September I couldn't take the pain anymore and had a couple of days off to see what the GP could do. Drugs and physio booked I went back to work.
Off again beginning of Oct due to pain and allowed myself to be persuaded back to work on "light duties". Again I asked for help. Could I maybe be put into one of the shorter walks? There are plenty of vacancies. Light duties lasted a day before I was put back onto 4.5/5 hour walks.
Off sick again and this time returned with a sick note for reduced walking/indoor work and an OH referal. Managed to stay inside for the next week then on monday I was sent out with half a round. I know I'm stupid for going but I was taken into an office with 2 managers and I felt under pressure. This has screwed me up totally. I sat in the carpark on Wednesday morning and cried. I actually thought about the unthinkable just to get out of the cycle.
I should say that for the last 12months my line manager seems to have enjoyed moving me around jobs daily and this is the icing on that cake. I have a duty I haven't actually done yet.
Sorry for the long post. I don't know how to move forward. I'm currently off and staring down a stage warning.
Is it me?